Friday 9 December 2011

I needed a sign - and this is it

So I have Shingles, due to stress and being run-down and my immune system being weakened. On Tuesday this rash / bumps popped out on my neck which after 2 days merged into one big blob. It wasn't clearing up and by yesterday was starting to get a bit sore and tender. So went to the doctor today, who's first question after looking at it and saying it looks like Shingles, was 'have you been stressed?'. Yes, I've been stressed for 5.5 years!! Well, 17 years in total if you add up all my years of working. But the last 5.5 years in this job has been high stress and pressure - constant, non-stop. And I'm just not cut out for that.
I have been exhausted for 2 months. I am exhausted every day. I wake up exhausted. And now this. My body is now starting to break down.
If ever there was a sign that I am doing the right thing by quitting my job, this is it.
I just can't do this anymore.  It's not worth it.